wondering when it’s gonna set in, that i just lost one of the most important things to me… and it’s actually my fault..
being such a forgiving person really is a downfall, cause i actually expect people to forgive me when i mess up..
The thought of you makes me sick. I can’t even bare to begin. I need to remember how it feels to be loved again. But the thing is, I just can’t pretend. I can’t just let this go. I can’t act like you never cheated or that you never broke my heart. I can’t act like I didn’t want to cry whenever I looked into your eyes. I say that I don’t care anymore, but really, I care more than ever. I think of all the good times we shared, how much we cared, and how constant we laughed. But then I just realize, all over again, what you did to me and why you can never be forgiven. It’s my turn to leave you, just like you left me. 3
The World As I See It: Dear self, -
In hopes to be more positive to keep your relationship with others, and your boyfriend working, you need to remember these things:
You are beautiful. All of the curves of your body, to your changing eyes, your dark hair that you hated, your adnormally small feet, your blonde eyelashes and…